A big downside of being interested in practically every subject in the world, is having a TON of unfinished projects. There are projects that kinda started, then I got distracted or demotivated by something and forgot about it for a while and got back to it 3 months later, or 15 years… The distractions can range from deciding to take a break from it because I feel a bit burned out on the project, or life getting in the way of doing things.
Music
Yesterday I received a notification that someone liked a song I put on soundcloud about 8 years ago. That was a nice surprise, both the fact a person liked my song and a reminder that I put up 2 songs on soundcloud at some point. Maybe I want to get back into that? I genuinely enjoyed fiddling around in FL Studio. When I couldn’t get a song the way I wanted it, I took a break. I couldn’t find the right sounds and effects. Then I kinda got distracted doing other things and life got in the way and here we are years later.
I also used to play a lot piano, on quite a high level of difficulty as well. Right now I havent played for years on end. I still have my piano of course, but in our tiny apartment there’s no place where I can just put the piano permanently. If I had I would play more, cause I would just sit down, turn it on and play. Right now I have to set the whole thing up, get an extension cable too (old houses have few and weird places for wall sockets) and I just end up not doing all of that at all. But, everytime I hear a beautiful, awesome pianoscore in a movie or videogame I would like to pick it up again…
Youtube
I also want to learn more about video editing, ever since youtube became a thing really. My youtube-channel is kinda silent at the moment. That is mainly because I have ideas for it, but not the editingskills yet. Practicing editing is something I find difficult though, I’m just not sure how to continue. Beside this, there’s the fact that my internetname wasn’t available on youtube, so I went with Fishing Faeniks. That’s fine as a name, but I also wanna step outside fishing content in games and am just not very happy I couldn’t go with my online name since my journey on internet started. It feels weird to have a ‘Well, I guess I’ll just go with this Name’-name. So it’s on hold for the moment until I decide to edit more and/or just accept that it’s fine to do other things than fishingcontent.
Twitch
Streaming is something I want to keep doing once a week too, it’s fun! I’m a bit unsure what games I wanna play lately. There’s this in general feeling of wanting to change things up and feeling insecure about being able to even play the games I’d like to showcase.
The fact I just cant seem to improve my dr. Mario skills also doesn’t help. I also know that I dont want to focus on just one game, I get bored that way. There’s a ton of games that I started and never finished for this reason. New games coming out or being stuck on a level and just giving up on the game are reasons I don’t finish games.
I want to change that though, so I set myself a little rule: “Don’t buy a game, unless you’ve finished one in your backlog.” That’s really helping me to kick myself in the butt to get games finished.
Something kicked me in the butt on April 1st this year. About 2.5 to 3 years ago I was in a chat of another twitchstreamer. He started playing Hatris and we were all really enjoying the derpy idea of the game and all the different hats.Then I jokingly said I could organize the WC Hatris, on April 1st, that oughta be a good day! The April 1st after it I was busy with work and very Ill the week before the day, so instead I did a little placeholder ’24’-hour stream (that lasted almost 4 hours) with mainly Hatris as game. It was still fun to do.
The next year I bruised my left hand and I also put organizing things (especially the technical parts of it, which are hard for me) off. And then CTWC did the WC Hatris on April 1st… That one hurt. I assume they didn’t steal my idea of course, but it still hurt a lot. It really felt like a special little project of mine. Actually I still want to do it, but it feels weird now. The only good thing about it is that they probably had more viewers then I would’ve had.
Writing
My writing is another thing I’m doing right now, after a writers-block that lasted about 15 years. I am figuring out how I want to go about publishing my story, how it works and where it’s possible. I had some good feedback from 2 people that read through my short story. And although I started revising it in a better way, I’m just not sure if it’s the best way? Maybe I should find myself an editor. There’s so much to decide on and reasearch. I’m still writing and revising though, so that’s good! Progress is being made every week. And I’m writing for my blog, which is a big thing as well!
There’s more of course, hobbies I started picking up and then stopped doing for various reasons. But adding those would make this blogpost way too long. Do you have any unfinished projects you want to finish but just can’t get yourself to? Or hobbies you want to do more, but don’t because of some magical barrier that stops you?
Sabine Writes 